Rationed love

A crumb, a morsel
Drips of water; a dry well
Thirst needs to be quenched
Hunger cries to be sated
Love still even though little

© Anna Jailene Aguilar

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Nothing else but love

Is this simply confusion? Or, was I mistaken?

And right now, where I am, I just do not know

Why I feel this way, I do not have a hint or a clue

Find out where I stand, how do I do?

Love, in love, lust, infatuation - what is each about?

I know similarities, undoubtedly, there are none

Love is what I believe in, the others irrelevant

But how do I know for certain it is love in my heart?

Love is better than just the feeling of being in love

Therefore, it is obvious what I want in my life

But why is it so complicated most of the time?

Why do I feel lost quite often such as now?

Then, I think and contemplate but more than that I feel

It is not unwise to ignore my head and heed my heart

It is the best route for me to take as a matter of fact

Thus, ask questions, analyze and worry, I do not

For I heard one said, life is fragile yet love is not

So nothing matters whatever happens in my life

Whether my time on earth is meant to be long or short

Love is what I choose, anytime, no doubt, for sure.

It doesn't matter

It doesn’t matter that for me you may not be ready

It doesn’t matter that what I wish you may not want

It doesn’t matter that you prefer to be free perhaps

Although the opposite is what I would like, in fact.

It matters not that your thoughts may exclude me

It matters not that in your dreams a part I have not

It matters not that your heart does not hold me

Because you are in mine, thoughts, dreams and heart.

It doesn’t matter to me where you are in life at the moment,

It doesn’t matter to me what you are going through right now,

It doesn’t matter to me how you are living your life currently,

Unless all of these matter to you and my concern in your life has an impact

What really matters is how I feel towards you,

What concerns me is what I feel in my heart for you,

And that my feelings for you are real, no doubt

That is, I do love you, no matter what!

Have you ever

Have you ever felt love in your heart

so much love that it feels so real

you could almost touch it

and your heart threatens to burst open?

I have... I do!

Have you ever experienced faith

so much faith that the smile

on your face cannot be erased

and not a slightest doubt can be traced?

I have... and still!

Have you ever trusted someone

with so much trust that you need

no proof nor reason to know

that only he is the best for you?

I have... I do!

Have you ever loved so much that it matters not

if he loves you, too?  Or less, or more

It is of no concern because you know

that while heart and mind may not align

reality is that this love is true.

Have you ever been blessed

as much as I have been?  Oh, I wish so..

For nothing compares to the joy within

Such bliss, such peace, such happiness!

Have you ever?

Where I find myself today

Hollow, nothing but emptiness

I cannot deny this naked space

In my heart, I searched for a sign

To find joy so I can smile

Pain, nothing but hurt

Tears must flow, I need to let go

Sadness I want to feel

To move on and blithely live again

Alone, no one but me

Looking around

Where have you taken me?

And left, without turning back

Deep down, hope I want to see

With fresh eyes conceivably

And a brand new outlook

Is it plausible really?

Then in full view

I was brought face to face

Filled with love as I held

In my heart my friends

Void no more, no longer aching

I find myself in awe

In the arms of those whose love for me

Is real and true